Don't Worry, It Will Hurt

We seem to fear losing what we love, at least most of us. It's understandable; if something that gains you happiness was to disappear, of course sadness wold occur as a result of ending up with less happiness than before, or at least if the loss is great enough to make such an inbalance. Some people seem to fear gaining more happiness-giving factors in their lives because of the though of this great loss. We learn to give less fucks about stuff we have, the people around us and the goals we have, because we experience losing these things continually. Some even get crushed simply by the expectations of gaining something great and then ending up with failure, even though this is practically just a potential gain. So we start growing careless.

You're probably commin with it; you refrain from expecting stuff because there's a chance you might not even reach your expectations. You refrain from being too happy with the stuff you have because it might get stolen or broken, or even unexpectedly lost. You refrain from caring too much about the people you meet because they might just leave you, and you refrain from falling in love because your heart might break. We refrain from living because we will die.

Feelings give sense to our thoughts and actions. They might get strong, and in some cases they might even kill you, but they should not scare you enough to make you strangle them. To throw them away and forget about them. There's no beautiful friendship based on the fear that it might end, and there's nothing to love about your teddy bear when he soon will be gone, anyway, according to your paranoia. There's no feeling that will be rewarded when it's not allowed to be shown, and no romance will appear from avoiding everything about it. No happiness will be gained when not daring to grasp it, even if it means potential pain in the aftermath.

Like butters says after losing his love; ''Well yeah, and I'm sad, but at the same time I'm really happy that something could make me feel that sad. It's like, it makes me feel alive, you know? It makes me feel human. And the only way I could feel this sad now is if I felt somethin' really good before. So I have to take the bad with the good, so I guess what I'm feelin' is like a, beautiful sadness. I guess that sounds stupid.''

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